Out of everything, I feel shame Wrenching guilt and crushing pain Breaking me down again and again Happiness is all in vein In a life without much gain Falling into darkness, angry Nothing seems to end this truly, The guilt inside of me I see, Lets me know there is no key To unlock within and set free The feelings of insanity And finding out my destiny Is only six feet under me.
Faintly, but a dream lost in a reality unforgiving. Darkened by the pain of despair. Apathetic to the world, sensing no redeeming quality could permeate this feeling.
Ever growing tired of the disconnect Feelings of serenity subside Crushing pain of reality resurrect It is where my apathy reside Losing sight of every truth Hiding behind a false façade The mask I wear can no longer soothe The life is much too flawed Filling inside with hate and pain The crushing darkness holds Feeling myself growing insane While my tapestry slowly unfolds What is the point of everything? When nothing seems to last and betrayals cold relentless sting Striking much too fast
Essence of life fluently flowing
Caressing both youth and elder
Cannot grasp the thoughts of not knowing
Wanting to stay in times shelter.
Years run by without a thought
Dreams they come and go
Leaving behind everything forgot
Drifting away, much like the crow
Illumination of the moonlight seems so surreal
Serene feeling in the justification of the false
Oblivious to facade of the luminousity
The celestial being taking credit of another
The impossibility of truth is found within the lie
Bringing forth the intuitive creation of imagination
The creative spark of the sublime mentality
And the tranquility of the personal dream world.
Captivating the feelings of the inspired
While motivation flows freely within.
Permantly encapsulating the unique style
And preserving personality through art.
The future is bleak, dark and decrepit
Shadows shroud the life of the unexpected
Misery clouds the mind of the lost.
The light cannot be found.
Feeling the blistering cold pressing
Some may say it's rather depressing
Though, I see it as such a blessing
For it let's me know I'm alive.
Bittersweet memories are long gone
Leading me away and further withdrawn
The stabbing chill becomes phenomenon
I'm now lost within my mind
Slipping farther down into depression
It slowly becomes my only obsession
Lost within all of this agression
Why is this happening to me?
The heartache you've caused
binds me so tightly
The shackles are weighing
so heavily upon me.
I am a prisoner of pain
I don't know how to get free.
I wish I could forgive you
Not for you, but for me.
How can I be optimistic about the future
When I am stuck right here in the past?
Stuck where we were,
How we left it, we moved so fast.
How do I find peace
When I can't move forward?
How do I find serenity
When the fog is so obscuring?
I'm lost in the sea of emotions
Each direction evokes a different feeling
Each direction I face another demon.
It seems nothing I do,
and nothing I say,
Will ever set me free.
The night was young and the blistering cold forced its way inside the miniscule slivers of broken glass from the window. The howling wind forced unto the exterior, unrelenting. The daunting memories of yesterday slipping from the mind as gentle slumber approached. It was not dreams that encumbered, nay, it was nightmares. Broken rest troubled this being, as quiet screams were held captive within. The animosity between heart and mind waged war, persistant in battle to conquer the never-ending fight. Will my plagued mind ever be free from these agonizing feelings? Will I ever feel the gentle bliss of being happy? Or will this fucking strife wit
Just a random thought process by TheMarrowind, literature
Literature
Just a random thought process
The morning dew shimmering lightly on the blades of grass as the sun’s rays pierce the blackened night sky. The illumination of the dawn carving through the atmosphere, the sun’s luminance so effulgent. The flamboyant petals of the spring blossom magnificently flaunting their charming aesthetics; and the world was in a state of repose. Everything so serene, so tranquil. The anxiety of yesterday, the fear of tomorrow drift from the mind. All that is left is the here and now. This beauty is ubiquitous, though goes ignored, neglected, disregarded and undetected.
-MR